~Im-Treatering


ADD IT!!

Requests:


1.=guardian-GARM
2.~Mustamamba
3.=fma-addict
4.*Psychopomp16
5.=Siemari
6.~shakon-bacon
6.~X-xDARKYx-X
8.~brennan7825
9.~ChuLolli
10. empty



So...My friend Caylah pierced my lip on Thursday and it looked so pretty but my mom made me take it out :/ I've been wanting one for around 3 years now and I finally get one and I can't keep it D:< oh well. I'll just get one when I'm 18. : P

I got an icecream cone today from Sonic and it was heaven, I must say. Quite the delicious treat. And I was supposed to go to this musical that my bffl Avery (~shakon-bacon) is in and of course I can't go cause my brother needs watching while my mom goes out and has fun :c I should've asked earlier but still. I'm sad about it.

So I sit here bored and wallowing in self pitty. Not fun. I'd rather be at the Suesical (or however the hell you spell it). GRRRRR! Someone please shoot me in the face.

-grumbles-
Ima go read some ZackxCloud yaoi...

I'm sick of drawing my characters so I'm offering requests. I have nothing to do cept draw and do school work so uhmm yeah... haha



1.=guardian-GARM
2.~Mustamamba
3.=fma-addict
4.*Psychopomp16
5.=Siemari
6.~shakon-bacon
6.~X-xDARKYx-X
8.~brennan7825
9.~ChuLolli
10.

First off...

Thank you to everyone who replied to my last journal entry. I was so surprised to see how many people cared and how much they did. <3 I'm sorry I didn't reply to most of them. I have been very busy and stuff, but I want you all to know I'm doing much better. And surprisingly enough, you all helped :3


Anyways...
I got my wisdom teeth removed Monday. ITHURTSSOMUCH. And it bleeds D|. It's utterly disqusting.I can feel all the stitches and stuff. AND I looks like a chipmunk, and I have been given the nickname Simon. >: -rubs swollen cheeks-

And I've started drawing again, however crappy they may be. I really am kinda sad not very many people look at my art, but w/e. I hate my username. I wants a new one :c

Any suggestions?

This is kind of a rant. But I don't care. I'm sick of being lied to. Betrayed. Screwed over. Stepped on. Used. Anything else you can think of that relates to those words.

I don't know why me finding all of these things out surprises me. It shouldn't. I knew it was was going to happen. It hurts me to say that I'm talking about a large number of people. People I thought were close to me. People I thought who cared for me. Loved me. People I thought I could trust with my life. My heart. I can't even trust them with anything. People say I'm emotionally unstable, but do they ever stop to think, What could've caused that?

Oh I know.

You.

I regret it. I regret it completely. With all of my heart I can truly say I wish I never met him. He's the one who killed me inside. I hate that I'm allowing this...this...BOY control me like this. I can't find a good explanation to why I love him. I just...do.

And the fact that I'm completely self centered doesn't help. I had the chance for a good relationship and I blew it because of HIM. Now I'm sitting here, putting myself down and making it worse. Now he's happy with someone else. And I'm unhappy with no one.

The pills don't help the pain. I thought they would over time. The doctor said, wait a little while, they'll help. No. They only take away the urge to hurt/kill myself and take away the urge to be hatefull towards everyone. That constant nagging ache in my heart is still there, channeling through my body like an infectious disease.

It's not fair.

When something good happens to someone I know, I get jealous of them. It's sick.

It's...just getting old.